Just the other day I was standing cooking in the kitchen and saying to Ces 'Pancakes make me happy'. Then she pointed out I say that all the time. Sunshine makes me happy, cake, strawberries, summer, a good meeting, it's all things i can remember saying 'it makes me happy'.
This later on made me think, not very deep maybe but yet think, about the person i am. And I do think i come across as a very happy person and that is reflecting the person that i really am.
I can't remember if i always was a happy person. I remember that i thought that i wasnt when i was younger, but at the same time i have this memory of me being i choir camp when i was like 11 and we met this person who was famous and everyone was getting her autograph, most ppl just got the name but on mine she wrote "to Annika with the happy smile". so apperently I was smiling a lot evn then, but jus never realised it.
As it is now, it think my happiness just comes partly from how i see the world. i try to see the beauty of things and to be able to meet ppl with a smile and seeing them smile back is to me such a great thing. I think i might even have a role model in this. Anyone who has met Maria knows she's the most smiling person ever! and i remember the whole last year we had this "argument" of who was smiling the most (both climing that the other person was the most positive and smiling person we'd ever met). So, thanks Maria for all you have given me.
even last week i remember seeing it as a big complement when we were drawing each other in the MC team as different things (season, famous person, proffecional occupatin etc) and they had all drawn me as a smiling person. At the same time as i remember that i felt really wierd at ITC in April when we had a "four word feed back" and someone had written 'doesn't smile enough'...
So i guess all this means that i reallt relate and identify with my smile and happiness. which i do see as a good thing;)
well, i'll hopefully keep smiling in my dreams cos that's where i'm heading now, off to dreaming land:)
xxx
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